Yesterday was my first Friday-off of many Fridays to come. This was a big deal for me because it’s in addition to the Monday and Saturday I have off already. Three days-off in one week?? That’s unheard of for someone whose weekends are sometimes packed with service projects or other middle school events. After some serious-soul searching and the guidance from some very important people in my life, I made the decision to work a few less hours so I could have a few more hours with my family. A big deal decision that I can unpack more in another blog post. Today, we are focusing on my first friday day-off!
After driving carpool that morning, I sunscreened and packed up my littlest girl and then headed to the park. I had glorious visions of smiles, sunshine, swing sets and butterflies dancing in my head. Yet, by the time we got to the park, she was fast asleep. I was determined to have park time, so I grabbed the car seat (with her in it, of course) and found a place on the grass under a big tree.
It was beautiful. The sun was shining. Birds were chirping. There was a cool breeze. Not another soul at the park… and then I was bored.
Without even thinking about it, I grabbed my phone and began answering emails. For a moment I was quite proud of myself. I was at the park having ‘quality time’ with my daughter AND I was getting work done. Am I supermom or what?
Then I the words flashed through my mind, “Just relax.”
Relaxing is hard for me. Even my sitting around doing nothing has to have a purpose. It needs to be with someone I need to have quality time with. Laying around watching a movie needs to have something to do with the teenagers I am ministering to or in effort to get over a cold. It is really hard for me to “just relax.”
I know relaxing is so important for the soul. It is so important for the body as well. Without it, one can miss out on the beauty around them. Without it, one can miss seeing what God is doing. Without it, one can forget for it truly important and the blessings around her.
After a few minutes of those words echoed in my mind, I finally paused, took in a deep breath, and relaxed. It was wonderful. Everything at the park seemed more vibrant beautiful that when I first arrived. My soul felt lighter and I it truly felt like an appointment with God.
My little girl eventually woke up and we did play on the swing. She smiled a lot and believe it or not, I did see a butterfly. It was a beautiful day…as soon as I was able to “just to relax.”